week before Chinese New Year

is 7 Feb 2013 and is 4.29 morning,
curios why i still awake at this time?
coz i will be going back to my hometown, from Labuan

Hooray, finally is my turn to go back
but deep in the bottom of my heart, i don't really feel wan to go back,
becoz i just dunwan and is hard for me to accept that everything have changed
after i go back everything will be so different
cant even communicate more with my mum coz i dun even noe what to say to her, seriously

this semester was really tough for me, i join MSM, i joined election, i missed out alot of classes,
i get information from others like play puzzle, have to collect information piece by piece. i went to thailand for a program but  i lost the precious you, i no longer in a  mood for study or do my assignment, still i have to faced my JLPT, after that have to prepared FYP， then my final exam and 3P course. i m totally no in a prepare mood for anyting or everythign after the incident. Damn seriouly...lack of motivation

i get what i want but as the sametime, i lost the most valuable thing in my life. if i know this will happen, i would rather not get what i want, so that i can keep u by my side, always...
and be honest, i m not doing well in my final exam ..i couldnt get myself to concentrate in study even though the exam is at the next day.

Last week, i received my JLPT result. Luckily and  thank God  i pass the test. and yesterday i jus attended my 3P course exam.  Didnt get a high score but i glad i get a  pass. But now what comes in my mind are my final exam result. i cant think of why the hXXX i so worried about the result of those test, i should have worried my final exam result rather than those extra course test result.

i just wish to maintain my result..will not ask for more...
Gob Bless Me ..

不爱了

偶尔想想，总觉得有些东西来得快，去得也快，好比爱情
回头再想，其实我们之间的感情游戏进展的太快了，当初你并没有怎么样追求我。。。

快三年了，我不知道你还爱不爱我，只是知道，我们都想退出这场游戏，却碍于面子问题，谁都不愿开口。。
我们都在等着对方说出分手，以为这样能为对方保留些颜面，却不知道这样的拖泥带水，大家都在委屈。。。
如果我能勇敢一点的跟你说分手。。

你，因为我忙碌，时常都会说些难听的话，也因此，我开始觉得反感。。
你的不谅解，我才后知后觉，我们其实是两个不同世界的人，只是刚好在感觉对的时候碰上。。却忽略了我们各自所追求的东西。。
你根本不懂得我的生涯是什么，每次我想抽空陪朋友时，你总会说我只顾朋友不理你，
我像陪家人时，你也是说同一句，其实我家人和朋友比你重要。。你凭什么左右我和家人相处的时间？？
你无法体谅我向往的自由，你开始为我打算我的未来，我自己的路，我自己会安排，为什么你非要我接受你的那一套。。你永远觉得你为别人安排的是对她好的，可是你可否问过她的意见。。。到底喜不喜欢。。。

我不知道你的爱情观念是什么
可是我很清楚地告诉你， 我的世界不止你，还有我朋友和家人，而我最注重的也是他们。
我的未来还有很多东西要追求，可你却不在我的名单上。

既然爱得那么辛苦，不如早点放手。。。。